Accepting the course of nature and Letting go by Mmrli

This week I felt myself age. That’s weird I know. Sometimes some events bring up such new and sudden feelings in you that you might have never faced before, causing a new piece of you to emerge. A new part you didn’t even know was hiding within, awaiting for you to call it forth. Waiting for the right mix of emotion, circumstance, knowledge and experience to be fired together and bring out a new you. Sometimes this is a good thing. Sometimes it’s just what it is. Like a wave beating against the shore, changing it slowly. Grain by grain until you look back and realize the beach is much shorter then it was. As the grains of sand are slowly pulled out to sea. Where am I going with this? I’m not really sure.

In my search for moderation and balance I realized, thru recent events, that I am one of the sandwich generation. Growing young children and caring for aging parents. Just as my children will not be in my home forever, my mother will eventually leave me as well. I have been unbalanced in this respect for so long. I was under the impression that if I nagged her into healthier habits I could keep the passage of time at bay. She of course would never listen to my nagging and this put a strain on our relationship.

I was trying to control things that were outside of my control. I was taking on a responsibility that was never mine to take on. Instead of respecting who she is and the choices she makes, I nagged, badgered and tried to get her to do it my way. This week, I recognized that in order to find balance in my life, I need to let go of things that are not in my control. I need to face that my mother’s failing health and aging are not something I can prevent or save. My nagging comes from a place of fear. Fear of facing that as I have aged, so have my children and my mom.

As I have enjoyed watching my children discover the world, I have been denying that time has passed in other areas of life. I may try to hold on to moments. I may try to fight against aging. I may try to pretend I can do something about what naturally occurs. But I realize if I am ever going to find balance, I must admit when things are beyond my control. I cannot bend time to my will. I can only accept the course of nature and let go.

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What the ####?! Issue 42 – Is athletics the new Tour de drugsville????

If we do want to enter into a particular sport when we grow up, we want to be the best player we can. Push yourself to the very limits of your endurance, find that little bit extra to get over the finishing line, making various improvements to your game. The true heroes are the ones that has just got it in them without anything to cheat upon.

When the stories came about a few years back about what cyclists do with drugs to improve their performance and cheat in the sport was shocking and frightening in itself. We all know what limits Lance Armstrong took to win at any costs and even his comeback into the Tour De France wasn’t an entirely successful one either. No wonder Opera had this as her huge exclusive interview to break down the facts, a bit like a highly trained lawyer.

Now, when I read a piece this morning about leaked doping files in the sport of athletics, my first thought was ‘here we bloody go again, not another scandal!!’ Was this from the Sunday Times heightened because of Mo Farah’s coach, Alberto Salazar or was it just a scratch of a much wider and bigger case?

The WADA or the World Anti-doping Agency says it is very alarmed by these allegations and they will reveal their claims in a documentary called, Doping – Top Secret: The shadowy world of athletics. And these claims are about the extraordinary extent of cheating that athletes take on the worlds biggest events.

So let’s see what this database according to the BBC Sport website show:

  • A third of medals (146, including 55 golds) in endurance events at the Olympics and World Championships between 2001 and 2012 were won by athletes who have recorded suspicious tests. It is claimed none of these athletes have been stripped of their medals.

Long distance events could be anything from a marathon to one of those 3000m steeplechase events. So again, 2012 could possibly be Mo Farah’s allegations again.

  • More than 800 athletes – one in seven of those named in the files – have recorded blood tests described by one of the experts as “highly suggestive of doping or at the very least abnormal”.
  • A top UK athlete is among seven Britons with suspicious blood scores.

(Don’t tell me that’s Mo Farah again???)

  • British athletes – including Olympic champion heptathlete Jessica Ennis-Hill – have lost out in major events to competitors who were under suspicion.

Being a heptathlete in which you compete in seven different events and try and get as many points as you can, you need to be a clear all-rounder on these events so maybe there is a case there. Jessica is one of those athletes you can say that she is special in her own right.

  • Ten medals at London 2012 were won by athletes who have dubious test results.
  • In some finals, every athlete in the three medal positions had recorded a suspicious blood test.

Got a good case that it might as well happened.

  • Russia emerges as “the blood testing epicentre of the world” with more than 80% of the country’s medals won by suspicious athletes, while Kenya had 18 medals won by suspicious athletes.

WOW!!! Russia trying to be on to of the world again, Mr Putin wouldn’t seem bothered if those allegations were true to be honest with you.

  • Stars such as Britain’s Mo Farah and Jamaican sprinter Usain Bolt recorded no abnormal results.
  • Athletes are increasingly using blood transfusions and EPO micro-doses to boost the red cell count.

This comes as pretty shocking news to everyone as athletics are in the midst of improving drug related scandals and bans that have affected people just as Justin Gatlin, who was banned from the sport after being a two time cheat.

But the main story in all of this is Russia taking this to a whole new level and their reputation are in absolute tatters from all of this. We will see though in the coming days, weeks or months whether these allegations are true which will bring the sport back down to the ground with a great big bang!!!!!!